Friday, October 30, 2009


Wisdom teeth are outt. My face is swollen to massive proportions, but I am diggin this vicodin.
And I don't want to sharee. Haha, we will see how shit goes.
This weekend should be the shit, right?

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

My wisdom teeth no longer exist inside my mouth, and touching my chin makes me feel like petting a fkn dolphin.


(I dont have the source for this. If you have a problem with it, find it for me.)

Anyway, Lately I've been caught up in raging against nazi political bullshit and the ever-dying-but-not-quite-dead hypocrisy of racism. I am very tired about hearing about all of these, and I just wish that for ONCE, just once, someone would try to pass that bs to my face so I can finally get out some of this pent up anger.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009



I'm waiting for my hair to grow. I'm trying to fight to urge to cut my bangs,
but I don't know how long that is going to last.
Forget the Levi's commercial you think you saw.

Pioneers! O Pioneers!by Walt Whitman
(1819-1892)


Come my tan-faced children,
Follow well in order, get your weapons ready,
Have you your pistols? have you your sharp-edged axes?
Pioneers! O pioneers!

 
For we cannot tarry here,
We must march my darlings, we must bear the brunt of danger,
We the youthful sinewy races, all the rest on us depend,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


O you youths, Western youths,
So impatient, full of action, full of manly pride and friendship,
Plain I see you Western youths, see you tramping with the foremost,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Have the elder races halted?
Do they droop and end their lesson, wearied over there beyond the seas?
We take up the task eternal, and the burden and the lesson,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


All the past we leave behind,
We debouch upon a newer mightier world, varied world,
Fresh and strong the world we seize, world of labor and the march,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


We detachments steady throwing,
Down the edges, through the passes, up the mountains steep,
Conquering, holding, daring, venturing as we go the unknown ways,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


We primeval forests felling,
We the rivers stemming, vexing we and piercing deep the mines within,
We the surface broad surveying, we the virgin soil upheaving,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Colorado men are we,
From the peaks gigantic, from the great sierras and the high plateaus,
From the mine and from the gully, from the hunting trail we come,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


From Nebraska, from Arkansas,
Central inland race are we, from Missouri, with the continental
blood intervein'd,
All the hands of comrades clasping, all the Southern, all the Northern,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


O resistless restless race!
O beloved race in all! O my breast aches with tender love for all!
O I mourn and yet exult, I am rapt with love for all,
Pioneers! O pioneers!



Raise the mighty mother mistress,
Waving high the delicate mistress, over all the starry mistress,
(bend your heads all,)
Raise the fang'd and warlike mistress, stern, impassive, weapon'd mistress,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


See my children, resolute children,
By those swarms upon our rear we must never yield or falter,
Ages back in ghostly millions frowning there behind us urging,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


On and on the compact ranks,
With accessions ever waiting, with the places of the dead quickly fill'd,
Through the battle, through defeat, moving yet and never stopping,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


O to die advancing on!
Are there some of us to droop and die? has the hour come?
Then upon the march we fittest die, soon and sure the gap is fill'd.
Pioneers! O pioneers!


All the pulses of the world,
Falling in they beat for us, with the Western movement beat,
Holding single or together, steady moving to the front, all for us,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Life's involv'd and varied pageants,
All the forms and shows, all the workmen at their work,
All the seamen and the landsmen, all the masters with their slaves,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


All the hapless silent lovers,
All the prisoners in the prisons, all the righteous and the wicked,
All the joyous, all the sorrowing, all the living, all the dying,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


I too with my soul and body,
We, a curious trio, picking, wandering on our way,
Through these shores amid the shadows, with the apparitions pressing,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Lo, the darting bowling orb!
Lo, the brother orbs around, all the clustering suns and planets,
All the dazzling days, all the mystic nights with dreams,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


These are of us, they are with us,
All for primal needed work, while the followers there in embryo wait behind,
We to-day's procession heading, we the route for travel clearing,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


O you daughters of the West!
O you young and elder daughters! O you mothers and you wives!
Never must you be divided, in our ranks you move united,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Minstrels latent on the prairies!
(Shrouded bards of other lands, you may rest, you have done your work,)
Soon I hear you coming warbling, soon you rise and tramp amid us,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Not for delectations sweet,
Not the cushion and the slipper, not the peaceful and the studious,
Not the riches safe and palling, not for us the tame enjoyment,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Do the feasters gluttonous feast?
Do the corpulent sleepers sleep? have they lock'd and bolted doors?
Still be ours the diet hard, and the blanket on the ground,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Has the night descended?
Was the road of late so toilsome? did we stop discouraged nodding
on our way?
Yet a passing hour I yield you in your tracks to pause oblivious,
Pioneers! O pioneers!


Till with sound of trumpet,
Far, far off the daybreak call--hark! how loud and clear I hear it wind,
Swift! to the head of the army!--swift! spring to your places,
Pioneers! O pioneers!




Monday, October 19, 2009

 

Acai Berry Tea tastes better every time I drink it. This Monday is bland, which sucks because it is so cliche. Tomorrow is DAY ONE of job hunting. The brutality of San Antonio's economy awaits, and I am going to conquer the fuck out of it.



Sunday, October 18, 2009


(picture unrelated.)

 "Every photon that landed on the developing tray of the telescope that took this picture had been traveling for 3 million years before it ended it’s journey. What we see here is what the galaxy looked like 3 million years ago, and 3 million years in the future we will be able to see what it looks like right now. Our Sun formed about 4.5 billion years ago, so if there are any planets 4.5 billion light years away from us, they are right now seeing the explosion that created our solar system. Even the light from our own sun is 8 minutes old before it reaches us."
-- Fuck Yeah, Space!

How's that for a beautiful mindfuck? I'm considering moving over to tumblr.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

I haven't posted in a while because my only camera is out of memory, and I haven't been scouring the internet as much these days. I hope that doesn't go the same route as television went; I can't watch it for shit. So boring.



Anyway, Marissa inspired an idea to double up the use of this blog as a kind-of-public-CD-documentation-thing. I tend to burn a lot of them because I have too much free time, plus, I need more music in my life so this would be a great way to shove it down my lazy throat.

@this week: Long and slow. Thursday night me and my sister combined our knowledge of faking sick to make fake barf for her to pour on the floor. It was brilliantly disgusting, and you can still smell it in the upstairs bathroom. We then proceeded to get blown and just laughed our balls off the rest of the night. Friday was a barbiturate and tequila party that I soaked up, and then it was just between my sister and I, a j, and a swingset. It's like I'm back in middle school or something.

Saturday, October 10, 2009




If there is any website that gives me mindgasms for the future, it's The Selby.
"the selby features photographs, paintings and videos by todd selby of interesting people and their creative spaces"



#i           ii#

Sunday, October 4, 2009



I've been kind of hung over all day. My second (fall) semester of college starts tomorrow, which would be cooler if I didn't hate english so much. My drawing course definitely makes up for it though, because shopping for art supplies is the shit. I've been ruining all of my good paint brushes using them to put on eyeshadow.

Going to the Texas State Fair soon. (:

Friday, October 2, 2009

I found that better way to spend my time, through my growing need for more punk music.




Here are some of the websites I bookedmark'd today:
Other than that shit is pretty ballsy. I'm never drawing as much as I would like, and I burn way too many CD's. But it's all good. Tonight I'll be balancing a base kid mini reunion with 40's, menthols, and hopefully a decent amount of dank.

Thursday, October 1, 2009



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(218): it only takes four glasses of wine for me to ride an elephant with a stranger.


I'm In Love With a Stripper came on the radio while I was smoking fags in the van, and really it was the highlight of the day. That's kind of when I knew that there had to be some new, better way to spend my time.